I wish I just did something with Mike, Nicky, and Angela. I understand life happens but a lot of people ditched last minute due to other plans and work. I guess it’s better to have something smaller anyway.

I feel like lately I literally have one friend. I put in effort with my friends but I don’t see it back. Being discluded in plans or not invited sucks. Or trying to hard with one of your friends texting, making plans, and you get ignored. I’m just sick of putting in effort and trying to hang out with friends when they never text me back or don’t try to make plans with me and I try all the time with them. This is why I’m not putting in an effort at all lately and seeing who my true friends are. So far two people, thanks boys. I know people get caught up with work, other friends, and especially boyfriends but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t put in more effort into some of your friendships. I love hanging out with friends and would love to see them on a weekly basis but only two people actually make that effort with me. 

I also feel like birthday wishes are annoying. I try to stay up until midnight and send my friends cute messages but last year I had one of my friends talk to me for 3 hours then say “oh btw happy birthday” kinda upset me a lot but oh well. 

I really want to cancel the event and just do it with a few people and I’m really considering it but I don’t wanna be an asshole.